Friday May 13th 2016. I had just moved out of an apartment I could no longer afford and moved in with roommates. My friend called me and asked if we could meet for lunch since she knew it was my day off. I only had $20 left after paying rent at my new place and I wasn’t going to get paid again until two weeks later. Since I had filled up my gas tank and had now moved to a place that was much closer to where I worked, I knew I could spare enough to have lunch with my friend and make it through the next two weeks.
It was a nice day out so we sat on the patio area of the restaurant. We hadn’t seen each other in a really long time so we had plenty to talk about. As we ate and talked, we watched people around the shopping center where the restaurant was and noticed a lot of really fancy cars. Our conversation then came around to talking about what drives people and their ambitions. So when Cindy asked, “What do you want in life, what drives you?” my answer came quicker than I expected; “Me I just want Jesus.”
Genesis 15:1 (KJV)
After these things the word of the LORD came unto Abram in a vision, saying, Fear not, Abram: I am thy shield, and thy exceeding great reward.
In this moment I knew that you had answered my prayer. I understood this scripture completely. That you indeed are my “exceeding great reward!” When I asked for you to bless me and give me a testimony that ended with a greater blessing than money/success, I admit I did not really know what to expect. I just knew I wanted more. I also didn’t know that I already had it, but you were patient and helped me realize it in my own time.
Over the last year I have forgotten this a couple of times, but in your patience you have always brought me gently back to this realization. You are perfect, and as you call me to also be perfect, you understand my imperfections and know exactly how to help me get past them and get a little closer everyday. I know I still have a long way to go, and I know I will still experience low points in the years to come. In those moments, help me to remember this truth; that I really do have all that I need (in fact even more than I need) in You.